This shall most likely be editted later as i could go on for ages but i do have work this afternoon.Yeah so it's the start of 2009 and i've set myself some high expectations for this year, maybe to high but I kinda need to set them high to get past alot of what happened to me last year.
Sooo lets begin at the start of 2008...began blissfully happy at a party at my friend Craig's house with all my best friend and my fantastic boyfriend Scott, who i adored and loved with all my heart. He was everything to me and made my life so happy.February, Valentines Day was a friday and we couldnt plan anything cos i had Brownie's in the evening so we planned a weekend at his. The Sunday night i sensed he wasnt happy and we had an odd convo, badly timed cos i had to go home. By the Tuesday it was over and I was devistated. So many things had come out in that conversation that Scott had kept bottled up and i couldn't bear to face them even though i could see the changes happening. He had been a broken man for some time and in the process of breaking up with me he made me a broken person too.
I spent so much of the year drifting through life, not really living it. Oh don't get me wrong there were some fantastic times, i laughed and loved and had fun but all the time there was an undertone of sadness that followed me everywhere i went. It was my friends that got me through. Now i really have the most amazing friends ever. Jayne and Shaun held me together, listened to my ramblings and cheered me up again, Ally took me away from the situation, out of the country and showed me i could have fun without guys lol.There were some other minor incidents, involving guys lol...as always when with me. I had a few lucky escapes lol, namely involving a guy from college who seemed to see me as a piece of meat, oh he dumped his girlfriend for m,e, but when i said i didnt want him he went straight back to her. Then there was the friend with the girlfriend that i kinda had a fling for for a bit but that's dead and gone now. There was the engaged friend in the troubled relationship who i had been crazy for even before Scott came along, nothing ever happened with that except a few games of strip poker lol....then there was the old flame. He'd been through some tough times, his girlfriend left him in the summer and his Dad got taken into hospital and he was so alone, in a sense we comforted each other. We were each other's rebounds i guess. It felt like that scene out of the Notebook with Martha and whats his face, the guy. Well anyway that lasted about a month or so, casual likes, then we moved on.Thats enough of the bad points of last year-
I spent so much of the year drifting through life, not really living it. Oh don't get me wrong there were some fantastic times, i laughed and loved and had fun but all the time there was an undertone of sadness that followed me everywhere i went. It was my friends that got me through. Now i really have the most amazing friends ever. Jayne and Shaun held me together, listened to my ramblings and cheered me up again, Ally took me away from the situation, out of the country and showed me i could have fun without guys lol.There were some other minor incidents, involving guys lol...as always when with me. I had a few lucky escapes lol, namely involving a guy from college who seemed to see me as a piece of meat, oh he dumped his girlfriend for m,e, but when i said i didnt want him he went straight back to her. Then there was the friend with the girlfriend that i kinda had a fling for for a bit but that's dead and gone now. There was the engaged friend in the troubled relationship who i had been crazy for even before Scott came along, nothing ever happened with that except a few games of strip poker lol....then there was the old flame. He'd been through some tough times, his girlfriend left him in the summer and his Dad got taken into hospital and he was so alone, in a sense we comforted each other. We were each other's rebounds i guess. It felt like that scene out of the Notebook with Martha and whats his face, the guy. Well anyway that lasted about a month or so, casual likes, then we moved on.Thats enough of the bad points of last year-
the good points :
College-the best thing thats possibly ever happened to me apart from Scott, it brought out a new side of me i think, i began working hard again after the disaster (academically) that was 6th year. Also introduced me to 2 of my best friends Christie- who is now at University with me and we're much closer than we were at college. and Shaun- who has always been a great support to me, looking out for me, defending me, walking with me, and gorging on doughnuts after class.
Summer- holidays to London, with my parents, and Cyprus with Ally really made my summer great. I love Cyprus now, its such a beautiful island, so warm, if i ever moved abroad i think that would be where i'd go.
Work- same as ever this year in the After Schgool club, o be honest i think the team that's there now is the strongest it's been since i started work there. They're fantastic.
College-the best thing thats possibly ever happened to me apart from Scott, it brought out a new side of me i think, i began working hard again after the disaster (academically) that was 6th year. Also introduced me to 2 of my best friends Christie- who is now at University with me and we're much closer than we were at college. and Shaun- who has always been a great support to me, looking out for me, defending me, walking with me, and gorging on doughnuts after class.
Summer- holidays to London, with my parents, and Cyprus with Ally really made my summer great. I love Cyprus now, its such a beautiful island, so warm, if i ever moved abroad i think that would be where i'd go.
Work- same as ever this year in the After Schgool club, o be honest i think the team that's there now is the strongest it's been since i started work there. They're fantastic.
My friends- well i've drifted from some friends, and become so much closer to others. Its been fantastic. My group of friends from school has gone through so much changes in the last year and although it's changed so much i think we're still strong...
Uni- started university finally, doing Biomedical Sciences and i already have my wee Gnag, Christie, Ryan , April and me are a wee team. Ryan is funny, tall sarcastic, lets me win at Pool and owns my soul apparently (due to a stunt he pulled involving a friendship contract lol) April is a pint sized girl witha huuuge character ho is a lot like me...we think exactly the same things sometimes, she loves the same animes as me and we have been known to come in to uni dressed verrry similar. Christie is the same as ever-she doesn't talk about herself a lot but she listens so well. She even let me stay at hers during Freshers week when we were partying together. Sadly we wont have all our lectures together this semester as shes taking 1 different module from me.
So New Year-new Saz. No more looking back on the past, no more getting upset by what happened or wishing things turned out differently. Good things are on the horizons. Romance possibly. Found out just before the holidays that one of my friends from university fancies me, so April has bestowed upon herself the title of matchmaker and says she's gonna get us together before Valentines Day lol. I'll keep you posted on how that turns out.... thats it fr just now really...
Currently-Keeping up with my Artwork on Deviantart http://www.red-devil-saz.deviantart.com/
Learning new music on my guitar again
Getting lots of new music for my iPod
Trying to keep ahead of my Dad on Wii bowling
Getting into a really bad holiday sleep pattern of staying up till 2am and not getting up till 11am...must break that before i go back to uni
Uni- started university finally, doing Biomedical Sciences and i already have my wee Gnag, Christie, Ryan , April and me are a wee team. Ryan is funny, tall sarcastic, lets me win at Pool and owns my soul apparently (due to a stunt he pulled involving a friendship contract lol) April is a pint sized girl witha huuuge character ho is a lot like me...we think exactly the same things sometimes, she loves the same animes as me and we have been known to come in to uni dressed verrry similar. Christie is the same as ever-she doesn't talk about herself a lot but she listens so well. She even let me stay at hers during Freshers week when we were partying together. Sadly we wont have all our lectures together this semester as shes taking 1 different module from me.
So New Year-new Saz. No more looking back on the past, no more getting upset by what happened or wishing things turned out differently. Good things are on the horizons. Romance possibly. Found out just before the holidays that one of my friends from university fancies me, so April has bestowed upon herself the title of matchmaker and says she's gonna get us together before Valentines Day lol. I'll keep you posted on how that turns out.... thats it fr just now really...
Currently-Keeping up with my Artwork on Deviantart http://www.red-devil-saz.deviantart.com/
Learning new music on my guitar again
Getting lots of new music for my iPod
Trying to keep ahead of my Dad on Wii bowling
Getting into a really bad holiday sleep pattern of staying up till 2am and not getting up till 11am...must break that before i go back to uni
Speak soon Saz xxx
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