I probably sound rather childish right now being a 19 year old ranting to her parents how unfair they are being...i'm basically in a strop because for the second weekend in a row they won't give me a lift home this evening from my friend Blairs who lives in a village about 3 miles out into the country (and he can't get to mine today because he's looking after the house). I have no problem with walking up there. It takes an hour but it's a nice walk. I do that normally...however they won't let me walk home in the dark, not that i'd want to and i have no money for a taxi and well buses are unpreditable out there on a weekday let alone a sundasy so once again i'm stuck at home with nothing to do.
Mum doesn't like driving the country roads at night and dad is oging out to a talk at church tonight from 6 till 8...i just don't see how he can't come and get me after his talk. It's not hugely out of the way really and he'd be home by 9pm. I know it sounds like sisterly jealousy but well my sister started work this week up at Dobbies, which isn't really far from the 2 after school clubs where i work and she's had a lift home 3 out of 5 nights this week(and i always walk home from work except if i'm at Seaview in the winter), and a lift home from her s5/s6 ceilidh which was at the gym next to her work...to be fair from there its only about a 10-15 minute walk home...yet she's had all those lifts and i have had none at all in the past 2 weeks apart from one this morning for my music practice at church.
My parents really get on my nerves, mind you i guess everyone else's does...but i feel as if they're still trying to treat me like a 15 year old. Yes, i know i should be driving by now and trust me, they've lectured me about it too but to be fair i can barely afford my lunches every day at uni let alone petrol for a car...or to move out, which i really really want to do.
Other Rants of the day-
Dad's done something to the computer...i think he's changed the admin password...and its vista so i can't download anything without it...or play sims might i add because it asks for it everytime the disc tries to autorun....grrrr.
I wish i had more money...oh no ot loads lol all i want is 50p so i can buy chocolate this afternoon instead of having to constantly think of how to stretch the grand total of £5 i have to last me till i get payed. Albeit it only has to go towards my lunches and snacks at uni until i get payed on thursday but still it's amazin how little that'll get ya lol.
Good Things-
Have found a way to escape boredom-might be goin for a walk along to Sainsburys this afternoon with Ally.
Drew a pretty picture of Gerard Butler in 300.http://red-devil-saz.deviantart.com/art/This-Is-Sparta-110566622
He's pretty lol
Sunday, 25 January 2009
Friday, 23 January 2009
Madness and Tickets
Wow it's been a crazy week... If i've not been in lectures i've been in meetings or trying to waste time before going to meetings. Involved in organising a fundraising lecture at University for a trip i may or may not be going on this summer to Trinidad to do conservation work with Tropical Birds namely the Blue and Gold Macaws...which is awesome because i love Macaws.
So yeah it's all go trying to sell tickets for the event which means pestering a lot of friends and family although i'm slightly scared...soemone i emailed has passed the message on and i just got a request for 10 tickets.... i only have 40 on my person to sell just now lol. It's been action Stations though and i'm feeling a tad stressed out.
Sometimes i think it was a little too much taking this on as well as having to deal with work, uni coursework and helping at brownies but really although it stresses me out it keeps me busy i guess. Better than sitting around doing nothing.
Typical Saz-i've gone all puppy-love over a guy...another one? i hear you cry. Yup i've mentioned him before but i just can't help it Ryan's just really funny and sweet and tall. lol.
Anyhoo i shall finish this later as i gots to go get ready for brownies before ma tea cos i want to watch the last episode of Come Dine With Me...which i shall also chat about i thinks.lol
So yeah it's all go trying to sell tickets for the event which means pestering a lot of friends and family although i'm slightly scared...soemone i emailed has passed the message on and i just got a request for 10 tickets.... i only have 40 on my person to sell just now lol. It's been action Stations though and i'm feeling a tad stressed out.
Sometimes i think it was a little too much taking this on as well as having to deal with work, uni coursework and helping at brownies but really although it stresses me out it keeps me busy i guess. Better than sitting around doing nothing.
Typical Saz-i've gone all puppy-love over a guy...another one? i hear you cry. Yup i've mentioned him before but i just can't help it Ryan's just really funny and sweet and tall. lol.
Anyhoo i shall finish this later as i gots to go get ready for brownies before ma tea cos i want to watch the last episode of Come Dine With Me...which i shall also chat about i thinks.lol
Sunday, 18 January 2009
Back to Reality
Sigh....back to university tomorrow
well i am slightly excited i mean i get to see Christie, Ryan and April again, who I have missed soooooo much during the last few weeks... we have a nice wee group goin on now...slightly larger than my wee college gang last year which, in the end was just me, Shaun and Christie with guest appearences from Danielle, Robert and Ryan C (who made a swift exit after the first few months). We were a good wee team though... It's really nice to have Christie with me in classes still, although she's taking a different module to me this term so it shall be strange after being in lectures together for so long... Shaun is awesome but smelly and went straight into second year so i don't see him very muchly...not as often as i'd like for certain. I miss having him to talk to, a lot. He was always a fabby listener on our walks into town from college and he's probably the only person that reads this...actually i dont even know if he does.
I get a nice wee break from work for the next two weeks...didn't have my timetable in time for the January avaliability so i dont have any shifts for the next two weeks. Will give me time to spend with the gang after lectures even though it means a little less cash for a while. Need to remeber to start saving.
One of my best mates Blair and I have decided to go on holiday together next summer to celebrate our 21st birthday's next year so we're going to spend a few nights in London and Paris seeing shows and being all touristy. Have already started planning where to go for our 25th lol....were discussing the possibility of going to Athens in 2015 since we're both interested in greek mythology...
All's not too bad just now...have had some surreal moments in the past week, some strange conversations i was not expecting...still struggling to be less of a floozy lol.
didn't manage to alter my sleeping pattern before going back to uni so tomorrow morning will be interesting....mind you i'm getting better.was up at 9.45 this morning....fingers crossed i can get up for 7 tomorrow
i'd better get to bed anyhoo...iPod's all charged ready for the bus tomorrow s'all good
night night
Saz xxxx
well i am slightly excited i mean i get to see Christie, Ryan and April again, who I have missed soooooo much during the last few weeks... we have a nice wee group goin on now...slightly larger than my wee college gang last year which, in the end was just me, Shaun and Christie with guest appearences from Danielle, Robert and Ryan C (who made a swift exit after the first few months). We were a good wee team though... It's really nice to have Christie with me in classes still, although she's taking a different module to me this term so it shall be strange after being in lectures together for so long... Shaun is awesome but smelly and went straight into second year so i don't see him very muchly...not as often as i'd like for certain. I miss having him to talk to, a lot. He was always a fabby listener on our walks into town from college and he's probably the only person that reads this...actually i dont even know if he does.
I get a nice wee break from work for the next two weeks...didn't have my timetable in time for the January avaliability so i dont have any shifts for the next two weeks. Will give me time to spend with the gang after lectures even though it means a little less cash for a while. Need to remeber to start saving.
One of my best mates Blair and I have decided to go on holiday together next summer to celebrate our 21st birthday's next year so we're going to spend a few nights in London and Paris seeing shows and being all touristy. Have already started planning where to go for our 25th lol....were discussing the possibility of going to Athens in 2015 since we're both interested in greek mythology...
All's not too bad just now...have had some surreal moments in the past week, some strange conversations i was not expecting...still struggling to be less of a floozy lol.
didn't manage to alter my sleeping pattern before going back to uni so tomorrow morning will be interesting....mind you i'm getting better.was up at 9.45 this morning....fingers crossed i can get up for 7 tomorrow
i'd better get to bed anyhoo...iPod's all charged ready for the bus tomorrow s'all good
night night
Saz xxxx
Thursday, 8 January 2009
Feeling like a slob
I hate housework....i've spent most of the afternoon tidying my room. I hate how when you think you've got the worst of it done then find another drawer or cupboard that needs done. My room's always a pig sty...i keep the rest of the house tidy but for some reason my room is always a complete tip...but its like that whole organised chaos thing...although its a tip i can still find most things in it.
I hate doing the dishes as well Dad has this thing about making me and my little sister do the dishes on a sunday night. I honestly think that he sees it as a way of making us get along or co-operate but to be honest thats where most of our arguements happen these days.
Actually i don't mind doing the dishes at work, thats the only time. It's quiet in the cupboard that we have for a kitchen. The kids arent allowed in there so it's nice and quiet...and we always do them at about 5pm which is when most of the children get picked up...so you go in there with maybe 25 kids makin a racket outside, do the dishes, and come out to find there are 6 left, playing quietly plus there are tins of sweets from the parents for christmas so we can have a wee munch as we work.Lol and i does like my sweeties...
I hate doing the dishes as well Dad has this thing about making me and my little sister do the dishes on a sunday night. I honestly think that he sees it as a way of making us get along or co-operate but to be honest thats where most of our arguements happen these days.
Actually i don't mind doing the dishes at work, thats the only time. It's quiet in the cupboard that we have for a kitchen. The kids arent allowed in there so it's nice and quiet...and we always do them at about 5pm which is when most of the children get picked up...so you go in there with maybe 25 kids makin a racket outside, do the dishes, and come out to find there are 6 left, playing quietly plus there are tins of sweets from the parents for christmas so we can have a wee munch as we work.Lol and i does like my sweeties...
Wednesday, 7 January 2009
New Year New Saz...
This shall most likely be editted later as i could go on for ages but i do have work this afternoon.Yeah so it's the start of 2009 and i've set myself some high expectations for this year, maybe to high but I kinda need to set them high to get past alot of what happened to me last year.
Sooo lets begin at the start of 2008...began blissfully happy at a party at my friend Craig's house with all my best friend and my fantastic boyfriend Scott, who i adored and loved with all my heart. He was everything to me and made my life so happy.February, Valentines Day was a friday and we couldnt plan anything cos i had Brownie's in the evening so we planned a weekend at his. The Sunday night i sensed he wasnt happy and we had an odd convo, badly timed cos i had to go home. By the Tuesday it was over and I was devistated. So many things had come out in that conversation that Scott had kept bottled up and i couldn't bear to face them even though i could see the changes happening. He had been a broken man for some time and in the process of breaking up with me he made me a broken person too.
I spent so much of the year drifting through life, not really living it. Oh don't get me wrong there were some fantastic times, i laughed and loved and had fun but all the time there was an undertone of sadness that followed me everywhere i went. It was my friends that got me through. Now i really have the most amazing friends ever. Jayne and Shaun held me together, listened to my ramblings and cheered me up again, Ally took me away from the situation, out of the country and showed me i could have fun without guys lol.There were some other minor incidents, involving guys lol...as always when with me. I had a few lucky escapes lol, namely involving a guy from college who seemed to see me as a piece of meat, oh he dumped his girlfriend for m,e, but when i said i didnt want him he went straight back to her. Then there was the friend with the girlfriend that i kinda had a fling for for a bit but that's dead and gone now. There was the engaged friend in the troubled relationship who i had been crazy for even before Scott came along, nothing ever happened with that except a few games of strip poker lol....then there was the old flame. He'd been through some tough times, his girlfriend left him in the summer and his Dad got taken into hospital and he was so alone, in a sense we comforted each other. We were each other's rebounds i guess. It felt like that scene out of the Notebook with Martha and whats his face, the guy. Well anyway that lasted about a month or so, casual likes, then we moved on.Thats enough of the bad points of last year-
I spent so much of the year drifting through life, not really living it. Oh don't get me wrong there were some fantastic times, i laughed and loved and had fun but all the time there was an undertone of sadness that followed me everywhere i went. It was my friends that got me through. Now i really have the most amazing friends ever. Jayne and Shaun held me together, listened to my ramblings and cheered me up again, Ally took me away from the situation, out of the country and showed me i could have fun without guys lol.There were some other minor incidents, involving guys lol...as always when with me. I had a few lucky escapes lol, namely involving a guy from college who seemed to see me as a piece of meat, oh he dumped his girlfriend for m,e, but when i said i didnt want him he went straight back to her. Then there was the friend with the girlfriend that i kinda had a fling for for a bit but that's dead and gone now. There was the engaged friend in the troubled relationship who i had been crazy for even before Scott came along, nothing ever happened with that except a few games of strip poker lol....then there was the old flame. He'd been through some tough times, his girlfriend left him in the summer and his Dad got taken into hospital and he was so alone, in a sense we comforted each other. We were each other's rebounds i guess. It felt like that scene out of the Notebook with Martha and whats his face, the guy. Well anyway that lasted about a month or so, casual likes, then we moved on.Thats enough of the bad points of last year-
the good points :
College-the best thing thats possibly ever happened to me apart from Scott, it brought out a new side of me i think, i began working hard again after the disaster (academically) that was 6th year. Also introduced me to 2 of my best friends Christie- who is now at University with me and we're much closer than we were at college. and Shaun- who has always been a great support to me, looking out for me, defending me, walking with me, and gorging on doughnuts after class.
Summer- holidays to London, with my parents, and Cyprus with Ally really made my summer great. I love Cyprus now, its such a beautiful island, so warm, if i ever moved abroad i think that would be where i'd go.
Work- same as ever this year in the After Schgool club, o be honest i think the team that's there now is the strongest it's been since i started work there. They're fantastic.
College-the best thing thats possibly ever happened to me apart from Scott, it brought out a new side of me i think, i began working hard again after the disaster (academically) that was 6th year. Also introduced me to 2 of my best friends Christie- who is now at University with me and we're much closer than we were at college. and Shaun- who has always been a great support to me, looking out for me, defending me, walking with me, and gorging on doughnuts after class.
Summer- holidays to London, with my parents, and Cyprus with Ally really made my summer great. I love Cyprus now, its such a beautiful island, so warm, if i ever moved abroad i think that would be where i'd go.
Work- same as ever this year in the After Schgool club, o be honest i think the team that's there now is the strongest it's been since i started work there. They're fantastic.
My friends- well i've drifted from some friends, and become so much closer to others. Its been fantastic. My group of friends from school has gone through so much changes in the last year and although it's changed so much i think we're still strong...
Uni- started university finally, doing Biomedical Sciences and i already have my wee Gnag, Christie, Ryan , April and me are a wee team. Ryan is funny, tall sarcastic, lets me win at Pool and owns my soul apparently (due to a stunt he pulled involving a friendship contract lol) April is a pint sized girl witha huuuge character ho is a lot like me...we think exactly the same things sometimes, she loves the same animes as me and we have been known to come in to uni dressed verrry similar. Christie is the same as ever-she doesn't talk about herself a lot but she listens so well. She even let me stay at hers during Freshers week when we were partying together. Sadly we wont have all our lectures together this semester as shes taking 1 different module from me.
So New Year-new Saz. No more looking back on the past, no more getting upset by what happened or wishing things turned out differently. Good things are on the horizons. Romance possibly. Found out just before the holidays that one of my friends from university fancies me, so April has bestowed upon herself the title of matchmaker and says she's gonna get us together before Valentines Day lol. I'll keep you posted on how that turns out.... thats it fr just now really...
Currently-Keeping up with my Artwork on Deviantart http://www.red-devil-saz.deviantart.com/
Learning new music on my guitar again
Getting lots of new music for my iPod
Trying to keep ahead of my Dad on Wii bowling
Getting into a really bad holiday sleep pattern of staying up till 2am and not getting up till 11am...must break that before i go back to uni
Uni- started university finally, doing Biomedical Sciences and i already have my wee Gnag, Christie, Ryan , April and me are a wee team. Ryan is funny, tall sarcastic, lets me win at Pool and owns my soul apparently (due to a stunt he pulled involving a friendship contract lol) April is a pint sized girl witha huuuge character ho is a lot like me...we think exactly the same things sometimes, she loves the same animes as me and we have been known to come in to uni dressed verrry similar. Christie is the same as ever-she doesn't talk about herself a lot but she listens so well. She even let me stay at hers during Freshers week when we were partying together. Sadly we wont have all our lectures together this semester as shes taking 1 different module from me.
So New Year-new Saz. No more looking back on the past, no more getting upset by what happened or wishing things turned out differently. Good things are on the horizons. Romance possibly. Found out just before the holidays that one of my friends from university fancies me, so April has bestowed upon herself the title of matchmaker and says she's gonna get us together before Valentines Day lol. I'll keep you posted on how that turns out.... thats it fr just now really...
Currently-Keeping up with my Artwork on Deviantart http://www.red-devil-saz.deviantart.com/
Learning new music on my guitar again
Getting lots of new music for my iPod
Trying to keep ahead of my Dad on Wii bowling
Getting into a really bad holiday sleep pattern of staying up till 2am and not getting up till 11am...must break that before i go back to uni
Speak soon Saz xxx
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